300th post - I should be more excited...

Today is turning into a difficult day. I'm supposed to be studying but I can barely concentrate.

October has been one hell of a long month. I just want it to be over but it doesn't feel like it's going to end anytime soon. Just a few days away but it feels like weeks.

I'm feeling really trapped right now. I need to move but lack the means to do so. I am starting to feel the pressure on all ends. I think I am mostly just missing the freedom I used to have.

I'm also missing this...



It's the one city that I feel so free in.

Wassup...

Bored

Studying is proving to be rather boring - and time consuming. :(

Only 4 more days of this.

Not Much

Nothing new to report. I've been studying most of the afternoon but wishing I could be with G. I can only imagine how this is affecting him; and I can't even give him hugs.

I'm attempting to change the layout of this blog a bit; nothing major (I don't think). I need to steer away from studying for a bit. I don't want to cause information overload. I like to study a chapter and then stop for awhile. It seems to work for me.

I might head down to Toronto on the 31st. There is an Athabasca student coffee at 4:00 p.m. that I would love to attend. I'm really beginning to miss the social interaction of college. Don't get me wrong, I love studying at my own pace as well as the challenge university is providing but some social interaction would be nice.

Dexter begins his intermediate training classes on Monday night. I'm super excited. I wish G could come though. He loves dogs :) That quality is so important to me.

Come on October 30th - I just want this semester to end.

Awe.

I had a magnificent weekend. I wish I could have posted sooner but my schedule has been hectic. G and I spent Sunday night in Niagara Falls. It was sweet; he booked a room at the Sheraton overlooking the falls. We had a wonderful dinner at the Hard Rock and spent our evening becoming closer. :)

I was supposed to see him on Wednesday but his work schedule didn't allow it. And then again today but unfortunately a friend of his family past away last night. :( It's so sad and I can only hope he is doing okay... My thoughts are with you and your family, love.

I've finally completed my final essay so now all I have left is two exams on October 30th. Study time.

G is For? ;)

I am so happy. Things went so well today. We went to a shooting range out in West Lincoln and I fired two super nifty riffles. We also spotted horses grazing in a field and got photos of me petting and feeding the horses. We then took off to Denny's in Niagara Falls and continued the rest of the day driving around Niagara and talking for hours.

I am on a cloud.

Done Essay

Woohoo! I am done one of my 20 page essays. This means I am officially completed my Experiential Learning in the Celebration of Diversity course!

Only one left to go!! And then two final exams of course.

The end is near! I am getting rather excited.

And tomorrow I am suppose to meet with someone lovely. We've been spending so much time talking, it's surprising the amount of work I've been able to accomplish! But he is a fantastic influence.

We're apparently going to a shooting range to prep for hunting season. Hunting it cruel but how fun would it be to go and shoot in the woods with my camera... perhaps... we shall see if I can make time.

I can't remember being this happy in months! :) Eeek, so excited!

Now onto my final essay.

Election

Today is election day in Canada. I was up bright and early to vote.

What saddens me is, most people I speak to do not take the time to vote. What took me a short 4 minutes, from walking into my polling station to walking out the door, is considered a waste of time to so many Canadians. They tell me they are far too busy to care about politics. Yet in turn, these people end up complaining about the Canadian government. I don't know about you, but to me that sounds rather ironic.

My theory on voting is, a lot of people gave up their lives in order for us to have the ability to vote. To not vote dishonours their sacrifice.

We live in such a wonderful country. Vote. It literally takes minutes.

Polls close at 9:30 p.m.

5 Months!

Dexter is 5 months old today! And he is now 10 lbs. :)

Turkey Day!

Happy Thanksgiving!

I think I'm going to get a kitten tonight in Niagara-on-the-Lake, eeeeek. But he isn't for me, he's for my brother. ;)

Dexter and Canned Food

I have no idea how to get my little guy to eat dry food again. My mother started feeding Dexter canned food and all of a sudden he wants absolutely nothing to do with his dry food.

This is really frustrating.

It's About Staying Strong

I've been lying to myself. For years now. It was my way of putting things behind me. It worked but it was such a temporary fix. Now that everything is out on the table I am moving on and it feels good. I'm stuck in a bad place because of past decisions but in time I'll move on from this. I have faith. I am such a strong believer in fate. This happened for a reason. I may never find out why, but all I can do is work through it. And for the people who stuck by me, thank you; I cherish you. And for the people you left when times were rocky, fuck you; I never needed you to begin with.

This life is so magnificent. There is so much to do and see.

Hopefully I'll meet some amazing people on my journey.

Tee's

I really want a Surf Saudi t-shirt. Brilliant.

Course Extension

I spoke with Athabasca U this morning and was able to get a course extension on my PSYC205 Portfolio Development class until December 31, 2008. I'm not completely out of trouble though as my course load is quite extensive next semester.

I'm now enrolled in for next semester (November 1-February 28):

PSYC290 General Psychology
PSYC304 Research Methods in Psychology
PSYC315 Psychology and the Mass Media
PSYC379 Social Psychology.

But my stress has now been significantly reduced. I have two major essay's left to write and two final exams and then I can work on my Portfolio Development class.

I should have applied for this course extension a month ago, it would have saved me a lot of pressure and stress.

Awesome. I'm happy.

My Artsy Self ;)

Among school, I have been self reflecting. In my earlier years, high school primarily, I used to be extremely open minded. I was so alive, so free, almost careless. I spent my days reading, writing and taking photographs. I was caught up in this huge web of creativity that seemed endless. And then everything stopped as reality hit me. I went to college to study technical theatre. I should have studied photography but thought studying theatre would help achieve a creative balance. It didn't. Now being wrapped up doing my psychology degree, with little time to do anything else, I've been experiencing these little bursts of creativity, and spontaneity... like I used to. I believe it is because I've been sorting myself out, figuring out all of these issues that I've accumulated over the last little while. As I work through each one, it seems easier to see myself as I used to. It will be fantastic to devote myself back to my art like I used to, I cannot wait for this semester to be over.

No Phoenix

I'm not heading to Phoenix anymore.

Things change.

People give up on people because they are weak. I was definitely weak. I did things I'm not proud of and that upsets me. I hate hurting people. And I hate being hurt.

But maybe that just shows love was never there to begin with. I don't really know. That could be me being rash.

Marriage is Beautiful

Congratulations on the wedding, Corrina and Jeremy!

I hope you have a happy and prosperous life together.

:)

Love?

It's just so sad that you can love somebody so much and have absolutely no idea what's going on in their head.

My goodness how true is that statement.

The Work Never Ends

I've been working non stop for days. I'm exhausted. Pushing through though. The end is under 30 days away. With a move in between, I am feeling rather screwed. I don't even have time to pack.

I don't want to write anymore. Too tired.